I’m here to tell you that things aren’t always what they look like. I’m here to tell you the things that people don’t want to talk about, confront, or get real about. I’m here to tell you that it’s no longer “cool” to care about how you look if your internal energy doesn’t match.
I might look okay in this picture... but holy shit, I was so unhealthy — mentally and physically. Eating on the go, grabbing protein bars that had more sugar than they did nutrients, drinking too much alcohol (I was in Mexico here so I get a free pass, but outside of this vacation and during this time in my life, I really was drinking way too much). I’m all about having a good time, but these are just facts. Mentally: my anxiety was through the roof, I was disconnected and as amazing as my inner circle is and was, I felt alone.
I was trying to compensate for how empty and confused I felt inside. I looked okay. I felt horrible. I was trying to navigate my emotions by bypassing them, avoiding them, thinking “it’ll be better one day.” Can anybody relate?
The day that it gets better is simply the day you decide that it is. Read that sentence twice. You are a creator of your life. You’re not the effect of your circumstance. You have a say in “how it goes”. You have a say in: where you work, who you surround yourself with, what you choose to pay attention to. .
This picture was at a time in my life where I was planning to get plastic surgery (NOTHING wrong with that). But you know what isn’t okay? If you need to compensate the outside for what you feel on the inside. I’m being transparent and real because... I no longer care. I am no longer defined by opinions of the outside world. This is me, and I’m finally choosing me. All of me .
I’m here to tell you that we are here to FEEL amazing: on the inside. We are here to drop the baggage. We are here to care less about what it “looks like” and to care so much more about what it FEELS like. We are here to stop pretending.
Here’s to living, to being, to feeling. Be yourself, guys. The gig is up. It’s just so much easier. ❤️