It's taken me a while to get here. At my heaviest point 267lbs after having my third baby, and being called names behind my back (cow), I felt like the most disgusting person. My self esteem is still working it's way back up. I'm now almost at my goal weight. My goal weight is ...to be happy with my self physically, whether that means loosing weight, gaining weight, staying this weight, surgery, whatever pleases me, because that's what matters. For to long I allowed negative people to determine my beauty score, my worth, to determine me. But I learned throughout the years that the one opinion that matters is mine. People will be people and I will be me.