I need to get brutally honest.
As of late, I have not been kind to myself.
I have allowed old patterns to spiral and have strung poor decisions together.
I have made mistakes.
Knowing they were exactly that- mistakes.
Under the shadowy guise of fleeting comfort and loose connections.
In the name of not being ‘alone’.
IRL at least.
I have failed to protect my being and trust my gut.
I’m embarrassed, mad, disappointed etc etc etc etc
I am also human. (A reminder for self)
I know better. If I’m being honest- I KNEW better.
I know my worth, how I deserve to be treated and the types of relationships I want to engage in.
It’s past time I start trusting myself and especially my intuition (which I have tried to mask since the beginning of time). Time to change, and grow and actually learn from these mistakes this go around.
I’m a year removed from the relationship I thought would be my last. I’m still healing and it has definitely not been linear. I’m here for all of it- the good/bad/ugly because I know my time to shine is right around the corner and I know that I am fucking worthy of so much more.
📸: @mollymariko aka the best sister ever. I love you and miss you like crazy. We will be reunited in CA so soon, just like it was always meant to be 💜
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