I am at a constant battle with myself.
My love for food and my love for being healthy is killing me 😓😭. Those who know me, know that I hail from a family where food is life. The smell, the taste, the look, and even the thought of delicious food is enough to make us happy.
After having Azlan and gaining the most weight I ever had in my life (86kgs after delivery), I had to choose 🤦♀. Food or being able to walk properly and look decent enough to look in a mirror.
I chose the latter.
At first the motivation was to feel healthy because I was soooo fat. I just wanted to look like myself again.
But after I finally lost all that weight (27kgs to be exact), the real battle began.
Keep the weight offff 😭😭😭😭. I never realized it is a way of life. That the freaking weight comes back if you try to eat "normally" again.
That your life will never be the sameeee!😫 I am neither fat nor skinny. All thanks to my constant fight with myself. I can't be committed to food or a healthy lifestyle.
Delicious food wins a lot 🤦♀.
But in the end, I do realize I want to feel good about myself.
I want to be able to live a healthy life.
Be able to run around with my kids without getting tired or out of breath.
So as my weight goes up, so does my will to be able to bring it down.
I don't deprive myself of the food I love. So at the end of the day I know I will have to burn it off.
So the vicious circle of gains and losses continues 🤷♀🤪... @prilaga #makeuplover #likes #youtubeblogger #bloglife #follover #beautyblog #blogspot #bloggerstyle #blogueira #blogging #blogged #beautybloger #youtube #makeupbloger #blogg #blogger #blogs #beautyblogging #foodblogger #bloggers #prilaga #bloger #makeupartist #bloggerfashion #blog #styleblog #bloggerlife #youtubechannel #beautyguru